nearly a month has passed since i told myself i was officially on vacation. up until five days ago i hadn't spent more than a week in one place, which has resulted in a nigh indecipherable gcal and displacement from time that only happens to people who hop back and forth between time zones the way bees pollinate flowers (my constant time in the air isn't as beneficial to the earth as bees are, please don't point this out, i already know). → do you ever feel displaced from time? when was the last time your mind short circuited, or time jumped?

the last time i was in my childhood home for longer than 24 hours was sometime back in summer, the displacement makes it difficult to pinpoint exact dates but it's long enough that when i wake up to help with morning chores i find myself standing, staring blankly into the near-dead eyes of a sheep trying to remember what i'm supposed to do. there is usually a point where my brother bastian reminds me with blunt vocabulary and a gentle tap on the shoulder. the sheep and i both look away, now remembering our places. → what did you think you'd never forget, but have forgotten?

1 tiffy, who is recently 22 and has so much hair that sometimes i think about taking it from her beautiful head and claiming it as my own.

2 one lamb of a wave that came at the end of lambing season and is an instigator in a group of little shits. needless to say- i love her the most. she has no name. → what should i secretly name her?

3 heidi, who will NOT be making her film debut ever, so stop asking.

4 sam, who spent the weekend being dogpiled by cousins and other relatives, handling it with extraordinary social grace. → how much respect do you have for personal space?

5 one of trudi's kittens who has yet to leave the warmth and safety of the farmhouse and surrounding yard. oh, also, papa - who talked to this cat for no less than 15 minutes at his birthday party, pausing every so often as if she were answering his questions.

6 just me in my sunday best. → please tell me i look nice in a v neck.

7 my beautiful older brother proactively aging himself while not sharing even one from the pack.

8 a treasure, a delight: derek, die schäferhund.

playlists are not my forte. typically i listen to the same songs on repeat in random order according to whatever my mood is that very second, or i'm listening to full albums. here's a selection that somehow found their way into a theme (albeit that theme is paper thin, at best).

please enjoy this short collection of songs that started out as a farm soundtrack but somehow became the overture to both my pining & self discovery at sea.

01chantey → akmu

02Postcards from Italy → Beirut

03I'm On Fire → Bat for Lashes

04A Window Opens → First Aid Kit

05Would That I → Lennox