emeraldhill los angeles Liked by amysutcliffe and 14 others. emeraldhill 🌊🌊 MAY 19, 2021

19:59

her voice is low outside the door, but he can't quite make out the words from so far away, and she can't hear him over the sound of the tap. "i did it exactly as you said, i think. half the first and second day and then swapped the rest but he's couldn't keep dinner down. that's him in there now."

22:27

"what did you take?" she asks, emptying the contents of his toiletry bag into the sink. out falls a case marked with different days of the week, each with matching sets of tablets inside, all in a variety of colours. this one makes you big again when you feel small, and this one makes you small when you feel too big. this one helps the others. this one smells of fish. she pushes things to the side, sweeping them onto the floor, in search of more, in search of an explanation.

23:18

"you look shit," he laughs, rubbing his eyes. it's late in one country and early in another, but still a bit too soon for him to try for harlowe and the kids, not wanting to disrupt their morning routine, so he's chosen alan instead - one quick check in before one of the more significant meetings.

"thanks, mate. you too," andy returns, knowing that the comment is an understatement, and even then he feels worse than he looks. it reminds him of a familiar feeling of a comedown, but going through it without having had the more enjoyable side seems like a punishment for an unknown sin. he can feel that weird tingling again, every time his eyes move across the screen, and he rubs them again. "did doug get the passport situation sorted? my south african one is nearly expired as well and the british one is easier to fly on."

"yeah, but by the time they'll get back to us, you should be back from la, so i can't make it anyway."

andy frowns, the last of the aces up his sleeve no longer allowed in play. the idea of going in alone already sat hard on his stomach, like taking off stabilisers before he was ready, neither his mother nor violet the real support he wanted. "next time, then. i'll let you know how it goes."